Fallin' Deeper, But....

This past weekend, I spent alot of one-on-one time with a special someone. Someone who has had a hold on my heart for the past few months. The more time I spend with her, the more I begin to fall for her. It's exciting to be so strongly attracted to someone who is completely different from you.

She knows how I feel about her and she's told me that "we're meant to be friends". But I can't help feel that she's starting to warm up to me. I'll take her hand when we walk down the street and she'd hold onto it. It's almost like we're already a couple.

But why do I still feel some reservations about her true feelings? Maybe it's because she'll be affectionate one moment and then very distant the next. She's told me that she's ok with being alone and is in no rush to be in a relationship. And unfortunately, when she opened her heart to someone (and this is someone I know well), she ended up getting burned. A part of me hates that he burned her. Frankly, I've lost some respect for him. I hope she finds a way of opening her heart again. And when she does, I'll be right there, ready to show her what real love can be.

Can't Let Go.....

"Despite how you feel, I can't let go of these feelings for you.....These feelings won't go away overnight. We both know you don't feel the same as I do, but I remain optimistic that your feelings will change. I hang on to faith that maybe one day you'll change your mind about me. Until then, I'll be waiting patiently..... "

A Sign Of Maturity

I've found myself caught up in a very familiar situation, as of late. A situation I know the inevitable ending to, an ending that never works in my favor. It always ultimately results in disappointment, bitterness, and sadness. But this time, whether it's through maturity and/or being desensitized by past experiences, it's easier to cope with these feelings than before. Of course, the disappointment still stings a little, the bitterness still infuriates, and the sadness still burdens my heart. I realize that that will never go away. Things don't always work out the way you'd hope (especially in the pursuit of love). Time will do its thing. So now, I'll pick myself up, and go on with life.

Listening to: True Love Waits - Radiohead